Fraud: Confessions of a Writer

Definition of FRAUD (source Webster.com)

1 a : deceit, trickery; specifically : intentional perversion of truth in order to induce another to part with something of value or to surrender a legal right
b : an act of deceiving or misrepresenting : trick
2 a : a person who is not what he or she pretends to be : impostor; also : one who defrauds : cheat
b : one that is not what it seems or is represented to be

I feel like a fraud. Why? Because I’ve been trying to pass myself off as an author and it doesn’t feel right. Yes, I’ve authored many short stories and have self-published one. I’ve entered my stories into contests and I’m working on a novel. Does that give me the right to call myself an author?

I’ve always referred to myself as a writer. It was as if I placed the term author on a pedestal and I needed to gain more experience, more accolades and maybe an invitation to be worthy of climbing that pedestal.

Because of my chronic pain, I don’t devote as many hours to my craft as, say, Margaret Atwood or Suzanne Collins. It isn’t feasible. I’ll never be one of those “authors” that has a set schedule. I’ve accepted that. I do set goals and try my best to reach them each week. Sometimes it happens. Sometimes it doesn’t.

Writing is my passion. It’s for that reason I’ll keep typing away, one story at a time, regardless of whether they are professionally published or not. It’s for that reason I call myself an author.